jUst being me.

Sometimes you’re not afraid of losing that someone. Neither are you afraid to be alone. What you cannot let go is you were cheated upon or you were ditched reluctantly.

Honestly, the word DITCH already means you were dumped without a choice. In my opinion, a couple, whether married or not, has every reason to try to make things work. The final call is when love is not present anymore.

And because of our unwillingness to allow things not to go our way, we get upset. The love becomes hatred and soon turns to vindictive behaviour. It’s pretty scary how our emotions overpower us sometimes. You’re no longer able to decipher if you want the relationship back because of love or is it just about winning? Sometimes you cannot accept that you lost to another guy/ girl and in the pursuit to make things go your way, you had unknowingly pushed the him/ her away.

If only people can accept that things in life don’t always go your way. Then you will realise it’s easier to let go. Forgive and forget. Revenge will not bring back the guy/ girl. 6 key words: Out of sight, out of mind. Platonic relationship just does not exist between some couples.

If you still find it hard to let go, think about losing their love to terminal illness. This is the best example of things in life don’t always go your way. Like it or not, he has to leave. You will be very sad. You will cry. Then someday you will realise he is not necessarily worse off in the after life, then you find contentment. You find peace.

Similarly, if you have to let go of someone against your will, pray that he / she will be happier as if he / she had been lost to terminal illness and had gone to paradise first. It’s all about choices.

If you say ‘It’s not easy.’ Of coz it’s not easy. But instead of saying ‘it’s not easy’ all the time, why don’t you ask yourself ‘What can be so difficult?’

Life goes on. Tomorrow when you wake up, inflation is still present. Fuel is still very expensive. It will still rain like it or not.

Of coz, not ALL things cannot be done your way. For eg, you can choose if you wanna go out and have fun or stay home and sulk. If you go out, you only want to laugh. This can be done your way. It’s your choice. You have the craving to have fried kway teow, of coz you can have your way too. (Unless your fave stall isn’t open, then you’re just, SUAY)

Thus, Mr X, if I am you, I would like to work on CONTROLLABLE factors only. Factors that you can change and control and make it work your way. Anything related to your own life. What you cannot control is someone else’s feelings and life.

Work on controllable factors. Smart people all do tt. If there is one drug addict in this world who can kick his habit and end up being a pastor helping other drug addicts, you can too. The pt is, as long as one person can do it, why can’t you?

So don’t say ‘CANNOT LA…. BUT HOR I…..’

Start saying ‘WHY CANNOT HUH? AND I WANT TO ….’

And rem, you dun always have things your way.

It’s been a long time since I blogged. Have I been too busy that I had become oblivious to happenings around me? Maybe. As I probe deeper, I realise I was just too tired from my busy schedule and even when I am filled with thoughts, I have not much energy to write.

Recently I met a drug addict, Mr X. The drug he is addicted to is a different form from your regular ecstasy or heroin. This addiction started probably one and a half years back. This drug made him happy the first time he had it. It made him really high a few more times he consumed it and of course when you experience such intense pleasure, you get addicted to it.

After a while, this drug gave him side effects. She was not so pleasurable anymore after he consumes it. It caused much pain sometimes but because he was addicted to it, he refused to give it up.

Anybody clean and free from this kinda drugs will of coz know this is a bad drug and anyone should abstain from it. This is the dilemma here- He knows it is bad for him as well but he just cannot kick his addiction.

The side effects from this drug got from bad to worse. One fine day, this drug was rejecting his body. This drug was amazing. It gives men the initial pleasure and thus many men were fighting for it despite knowing the potential side effects it has.

As this is the one and only drug in the world, someone else had offered a more attractive price for it. Mr X was not able to keep this drug by his side. He became a walking zombie.

As like any drug addict stories, he is struggling to kick this addiction.

And like any typical person, you will probably think this drug that I am talking about is a powder or some liquid in syringes. The drug I have been talking about here is actually a woman.

If you had paid attention, I had mentioned from the start that this is not your typical drug.

To be continued………

You taught me to be stronger. You taught me what was pride. You made me a better girlfriend and I would like to thank you for it.

I now understand that guys must have their games, PC, PS2, PSP, arcade, whatever…

I remembered my first guy smashing his CD-Rom in front of me coz I was upset that he was spending a lot of time on it. Now, I play with my guy, at least before I dismiss it as BORING and not my cuppa tea. Btw, my guy now has been trying to find some Tennis game that we can play together on PS2.

Once he is comfortable that you actually dun mind him playing games, he allows you to be somewhere in his room while he is at it. He is happy that you do not mind and talks about how to kill the giant centipede in the next stage.

You taught me how to treasure. If not for the heartache and the jerks that I met later on in life, I wouldn’t know what is it like losing what was once precious but you took for granted.

You taught me to choose the right time, place and tone to express some thoughts that could be detrimental to the relationship. The same message told at diff times of the day and at different moods evoke different responses.

You taught me to be independent but ask for attention when the need arises. Guys generally like to protect their gals but over reliance can be quite a nuisance sometimes. Too powerful a girl makes you unattractive too. I’ve now learnt or is still learning to strike a balance between the two.

You taught me to be supportive and mean it. This means extending loads of understanding when you have to work hard and long. I have come to understand that my job is to love and be supportive. These are things that will keep a guy, not suspicions and distrust.

To Johannes: You taught me that Love is not selfish. You taught me that sometimes you just have to let go no matter how much you hate to. You taught me to take life seriously and to make the best out of it. You taught me that love can be great too. When a man needs no emotional burden to fight a war, you just got to respect it and that could possibly be what you can do for him. Instead of crying every night and hope for a miracle, you taught me to remain positive so as to give you all the energy to fight this battle.

I’ve learnt to learn in the relationship, not when it ends. This means constant reflections and communication to know where the relationship is heading. Communication is an Art. Its not just about speaking your mind. It’s about applying the right tone and thinking hard how to put something across without hurting your guy’s ego. It is also about encouraging feedback from your guy and not judging it before he finishes.

All in all, as long as love is present, anything can be worked out. Gone were the days where you threaten the relationship each time there is a quarrel. I’ve learnt that even if a relationship has to end, it can be done amiably.

I’ve learnt that patience and determination pays off. You cannot expect everyone to think like you. What you can do is to try to understand where the person is coming from and try to work around it. If a relationship is too smooth-sailing, there is really nothing to look forward to anymore. Its about overcoming obstacles that makes a relationship worth remembering.

Of course, I am not asking you to pick a quarrel later. Let nature take its course.

This blog serves to tell my readers to try their best at the relationship as long as love is present. It also serves to remind people who are under-going a hard time now in their relationship that each ending is never an end. It is the beginning of a learning process. Look forward to a stronger you. Look forward to what life has to offer after a routine is about to change. More often than not, people are in a relationship because it is a habit. They resist changes. They resist pain.

Lay the facts before you. Use a powerful tool, ie your mind to tell yourself, with these facts laid out, what are in your control. Facts are facts, they are beyond your control. Its funny to ask you to enjoy the process of a heartache but believe me, someday, you will realise the precious lesson that each heartache brings you. For this reason, you have to be patient and strong to experience such a day!

With this said, Thank you Yong Khang, Johannes and Chris, and many others who have shared their sob stories with me. Thank you.

It is indeed the hardest word for those who will regret later in life, maybe.

Very complicated starting statement. I was just thinking what the lyricist of this song was feeling when he penned this song.

‘What do I do to make you love me? What do I do to make you stay? What do I do when lightning strikes me?’

Ha! I just hope when lightning really strikes and you have only one breath left, you will not feel SORRY for yourself. For not having that courage to say sorry when you were alive and you have to bring this regret to your next life.

The story begins this way. No, to summarise, Alphee had treated J bad in the past. If it was a game of ginrami or some say ‘Dai dee’, their relationship is one where Alphee had all the TWOs and J had none. For those new to this card game, Ginrami is a game where Ace isn’t the biggest card. The Black TWO spade is, followed by the Red TWO heart, Flower then diamond. When she requested to have at least 2 of the TWOS, he said- "sure, I will give you the diamond and flower. You will still lose eventually." J lived this way and all she wanted was to keep giving.

Alphee din treasure her. He had continuously snubbed her and twirled her around his finger neglecting her feelings and dignity.

The final straw came. J chose to walk away after 2 years. It was a really bad fall for her and she had bruises all over. She found a new lease in life when she joined SQ to fly- Seeing the world was as good as seeing the fact that everyone, whatever race you are, goes thru some sort of pain and sorrow at some point in their lives. So she is not alone. She had to stop feeling sorry for herself and move on.

Its been almost a year half. Alphee went on a few dates. For some, he thought he could get serious- only to find these relationships sizzling off. Relationships base on looks are not sustainable. Inner beauty is very impt but there is something else that is the most impt. CHEMISTRY. Something I can’t explain and won’t explain.

Perhaps he was lonely. Perhaps he never found someone as good as J. Sometimes when i meet him late in the night for a cuppa or prata with bananas, he will tell me ‘actually I still think of J.’

Altho he is a very very good friend. I only had this to say:

"You deserved it. I could empathise with the J that I once knew. You were once her everything but you had obviously taken her for granted. Fact is you hurt her really hard"

According to Alphee, they had met up a few times in the last year and a half. She had evolved into a social butterfly who swears in every conversation they have and talks about how stylish she is playing with drugs and raving the wildest parties. She was no longer the J Alphee once loved.

I advised him to be serious to her for once. No more ‘CBs’ and ‘What the fuck la..’ but seriously lookng into her eyes ernestly and say a  ‘SORRY’. Perhaps this is something she has always been waiting to hear for the past year or so but never did. I begged him to tell her seriously how he really feels and how much remorse he has.

He refused. The furthest he can go is to drop hints. So what if she got the hint? She had been humiliated once and luckily she got her pride back before the last goodbye. She may have got the hint and I will not expect her to initiate a new lease in their relationship.

Both are wearing masks. Perhaps J had really changed but Aunt Agony, me, feels that she is trying very hard to show Alphee how well she is leading her life, thanx to him of course. She is putting up a very strong front- something she never had when she was with him.

As for Alphee- Its an ego thing. He had full control in the relationship. It is certainly very difficult for him to bow low- perhaps he is afraid of a rejection too but is afraid that I can see that.

Until these 2 lovers can shed these masks and be sincere in their approach, this love will be still born and even if they both lead very happy lives in the next 10 years, they may stop some day in their busy lives, to think of each other and wonder what would it have been if they had tried.

I am someone who does not wish to live with regrets. You never lived until you tried. Even if it fails, you have seeked closure. I think closures are important for you to move on full force in life.

All the questions left unspoken. Answers left buried within. How can one live this way? I would seek to find the truth, even if it hurts. This kinda pain are only temporary. It will heal rather than the pain of being around the person you once love and still loves but she is just so far.

Alphee had grown. They met at a phase where he probably wasn’t ready to love his woman the right way. J, it is definitely worth taking this risk again. Because he had learnt a very good lesson on taking his life seriously- and you are part of his life. If you could find back the innocent way of loving someone again, you may want to consider renewing this love that never went back. It is like wine. The longer you keep it, the better it becomes.

Of coz, if you have found someone better, I am sure he will seek a certain closure as well coz I guess all Alphee wants is for you to be happy. Seeing you take drugs and degenerating isn’t something he can let go. You got to really show him that you are happy.

Alphee, Just say sorry. It does not make you less of a man, it does not cost much and it does not hurt. Why not?

Sorry really isn’t such a difficult word. Er, by the way, asians have a bad habit of saying sorry till its meaningless. Start observing today. Say it when you really mean it and someone will feel the importance of this word.

‘Auntie! Auntie!’ I did not know the little boy was referring to me. I had got so used to being addressed as jie jie.. I refused to admit I am AUNTIE!

Sianz. Fact is I have a nephew that calls me Gu gu now. Jeepers. This blog should be interesting for someone who is a lot younger than me for this will be a checklist for you when you reach my age.

Somehow I didn’t like to club anymore. I get tired easily and I doze off by midnight. I am not the least interested what is the latest chat interface and I am still happy with my MSN. Oh yah.. someone sent me some video in my testimonial and I preferred to keep my frenster simple. Thus, I did not approve it. No shoutouts. No MTVs, No fanciful speeches or any funny gadgets. Just a simple platform to keep my frens in.

Recently a friend of mine emailed me and requested for me to change the template and background colour of my blog. She said she loves to read my blogs but the fonts were too small and the colours’ too contrasting. My reply to her was " I am a writer! not a designer. By the way, how do you put pictures and change the fonts?"

Somehow as much as I would like to stay ‘hip’, I am starting to change without me realising. I used to dislike pearls and I only tied my pony tail high up in the sky. Somehow the pony tail just got lower and I actually love pearls! Yes I finally took out a set of real pretty pearls my mum gave to me when i was 16 and many had commented that these pearls made me look more ladylike.

I never could understand why women can buy so many pairs of shoes when they only have a pair of feet. Now my shoes are piling up to match my dresses. I could wear a cute panty with a tee-shirt bra of another colour. Lace was a taboo becoz it WAS very AUNTIE! Somehow now you buy lacey bras and panties and they got to be matching. Oh well..

Auntie signs? I think staying hip takes an effort. haha.. an unnatural effort. I met an old auntie who’s 74 and she spots reddish dyed hair with very stylish specs. Just to add she is very slim and wore a long gold coloured chain- not the ah beng sort but those that are in trend now. She is a bit slow in her reaction but definitely fast to react to ‘fashion’ in her own sense. She takes a while to register what you’re saying and replies in a retarded way.

‘How old are you?’ she asked. Obviously I asked her to make a guess and she popped a ‘22!’. I then replied "I am 26!"

She pulled a straight face, raised her eyebrow a little, after waiting 5 seconds or more, she suddenly shouted! ‘So childish! You don’t look your age.’

I turned to my sweetheart and lamented ‘Auntie sitting next to me says I am childish.’ I did not know how to react. He did not too. He just laughed and said ‘I don’t know what to say.’

I seriously did not know if I should cry or laugh.

AUNTIE! HELP!

And I don’t mean the physical signs or the constant aches from too much sports or fatigue from only 3 hours of sleep last night.

Maturity does not come with age. Wrinkles and fatigue do. My 4 year old Citroen is maturing and the tell tale signs are the constant problems of overheating, wearing out of tyres, starter motor not working, jump starting the car for the past one week etc.

All in all, this car is giving me far too much problems that you think its pointless to keep reviving it all the time.

The new Citroen C4 is cool. Refrigerated glove compartment, dual air con control, rain and light sensor, digital display, cruise control, speed limiter but quite a rough engine although i must say they had improved from the old citroen engine- $73,000 car before the trade in and discount.

Now the down side- High fuel consumption, no more iconic suspension, very expensive spare parts and maintenence. One good example is the wiper, which is like any other toyota wipers, costs a whopping $60!

When I bought a car 4 years ago, I went for a continental one coz my parents think Jap cars are not safe. Continental cars are more prestigious and definitely safer.

4 years later, although I am very tempted by the bimbotic features of the new C4, I am more rational. I could come to terms with my needs- namely, my finance, function and I could see the long-term plan.

I love sporty models and the C4 has got a really sporty look- sporting a hatchback and very good-looking bodykit with fog lamps.

When I sit down and think to myself- I need a car namely to get from Point A to B and I would like to spend as little money and trouble on it as possible. A common Jap car serves my needs. That’s right. So I bought a Jap car on 16th December 2006. Rational and wise choice.

True enuff. My Citroen died on me again. When the Tow Truck Uncle came- he told me he tows more french cars than jap cars. Toyota is very fuel efficient (its no wonder- they’re so light! That’s not a good point coz I doubt the car has superb handling and thick body to protect the driver) and Mazda is a good car tho more fuel consuming. Nothing drinks more fuel than a stupid french car.

I was one of those suckers 4 years ago who thinks people who own continental cars are of another class. And I am glad that when i got a car again, I was able to rationalise that all I need in a small small country like Singapore is a basic car that is reliable, cheap and fuel efficient.

Similarly- If a Braun Buffel purse can hold my cards and money as well, why do I need a prada? I am quite proud of myself when my frens, Ang mohs included, comment ‘ you’re quite low maintenence huh?’

Ain’t need a LV or Gucci. When it comes to choosing my partner, I could apply the same theory. Just happy with a comfortable life. Ain’t need a luxurious one. Debt-free life is what I sought.

Happy and thus I feel lucky. Tho the past week’s been bothered with my stupid french car- I must say it has served me well for the past 4 years -coming 5, well. Thank you my dear Xsara.

Have you sometimes spoke your mind so freely only to regret it when you recollect it on your way home or before you go to bed?

Damn. Some people (mostly leo or sagi traits) tend to speak their minds freely.

There are also some who leave their true personalities at home before they head for work. At work, at play, at home they wear different masks. How amazing is that!

I am a firm believer who thinks you should just be yourself wherever you are. Hmm, or should I say I used to believe. Don’t be mistaken. I have not become a hypocrite. Maybe you will think I have. Truth is I think I have become a smarter communicator, not a hippo.

One very inspiring event that took place during my appraisal with my boss, well, I call her my friend coz we often share our thoughts freely so as to better ourselves, at home or at work.

I am an aggressive person who HAS LEARNT- I repeat, has learnt (due to the constant bullies I meet at work) that if you do not stand up for yourself, nobody will. I speak my mind. I voice my opinions. I take no shit. But i learnt first time lessons hard. Not very smart ey?

But I think a positive point about me is if it is a genuine mistake, I will make an effort to resolve it or apologise. So there I was telling my mentor that I will go upfront to the person I am having a conflict with and resolve it openly. The word I used then was ‘I will resolve it if need be so nobody has to feel awkward at work.’

I work with this belief because I often think everyone thinks like me. I believe honesty goes a long way and frankness is something I appreciate so we don’t waste time at work playing mind games or taking 1 hour just to draft an email (to avoid darting or farting, whatever you call it). My bad.

The belief was overthrown by my mentor. When i said I will not hesitate to resolve conflict, she interrupted me by saying ‘why do you even need to resolve a conflict when you can don’t start one? Somebody who fights all the time at war may not win the battle. It is someone who takes a step back to analyse and wait and is smart enough to make use of a good opportunity to retaliate-is a true winner’

Woah…. Breathtaking. Yes. That statement took my breath away. Thus, I am spreading it to more people.

Takes a conscientious effort. Coz if you often have to watch what you say or type to avoid a conflict, that takes away the ‘natural’ part of you. Then again, if I have to always feel like shit for not thinking before I say or write, I think this effort is worthwhile.

Tapping on an opportunity. This takes skill too. How would you know when is the best time? Ha! You have to listen more than you speak. Watch the situation. Most impt of all, analyse the person you are dealing with. After you go down to fundamentals, you will be better equipped to analyse when is the best time to say or do something.

For eg, you know you’re definitely right and what you’re doing cannot be wrong. But the object you’re dealing with is an egoistic individual who will never want to lose. Then you will ask yourself if its worth trying to argue or reason just to prove this person wrong? You know you will NEVER win becoz of his personality and if you continue to argue, you will still lose, why argue?

I would take a step back and play the game right. Give in. Don’t have to agree. Just act stupid. It’s the safest. Just go ‘I see… and thanks.. I will take note.’ Sometimes, you don’t really need to let everyone know what you’re thinking or doing. Attack the main tumour and the rest of the poison will dispell.

2 eyes to be opened, 2 ears to listen and one mouth so you don’t always have to talk. Alas! I hope I dun ever have to feel the ‘oops I did it again’ crap again and sulk myself to bed. Eeww……

I believe in fate but I don’t think everything is destined. I would like to see it this way.

When I was born, I see a path in front of me. You stride on it with your dad and mum and you’re happily hopping along this path.

Somehow the older you grow, the more paths branch out along the way. The more you understand and go through, the more paths will be presented to you at random times.

I choose not to believe that life is FATED. I choose to think that the more knowledge we gain and the more people we meet, we will come to certain nodes in our lives where we will be presented with a crossroad. At this junction, you have a few paths that are presented to you. You DO have the right to make the decision as to which path to choose. You decide which path to take.

Here;s where the ‘fated’ part comes in. I believe whatever follows after you decide the path is somewhat fated.

You will walk along this ‘fated’ path until the next crossroad. At the next crossroad, you will see a new array of paths again awaiting for your decision. Whichever routes and paths you choose decides what will become of you at the end of the road.

Some paths may lead you back to a familiar path that you may have taken before. I have no regrets. I have no right to regret. Afterall, I chose the path myself. I just leave it to fate to decide what comes after each decision at each crossroad and make the best out of it.

I lost count of the number of crossroads in my life. I am now in another one but believe me, we are versatile creatures. Whichever path you chose, just keep walking straight. You will twist and contort yourself to suit the environment along the way. Past is a fact. The future is still a blank. Keep your head and spirit up and you will find yourself getting through it.

I am what I am because of the decisions I have made. I am what I am because of the experiences I have had along each path. Life is a wonderful journey filled with unexpected entries everyday. I am loving what it brings. What about you? If you’re not, you may want to walk to a crossroad and decide a new path to take? It’s your take.
Everyday when i wake up, I have to start making decisions instantly. I decide if I wanna be happy or sad. Believe me. If you chose to be happy, the path that follows is fated. Most of the time, you will really be happy. Not all paths are smooth. They’re fated anyway. Wake up to a new day and you’re good to go again.

Alas! Life is beautiful. Isn’t it?

Remember Christine. Not like she taught me a lesson, but from her, I am able to relate to my friends that I really think ‘Timing’ is the most valuable factor that determines if someone is ‘THE ONE’.

She met Mr X at the age of 23. He was 32. He had a marriage but left it with 2 kids. Mr X met Christine, they were a perfect match. Soon, she moved in with him. By the time she was 25, Mr X proposed.You can imagine the love they shared. I often ask myself ‘why would a man leave his marriage and go into another one? Isn’t it as good as suicide one more time? Then again, after a failed marriage, he knows what he needs to make it work this time?’ Oh well, every relationship has its unique features. We can’t apply theory X to all relationships and hope to make it work.

Ok, back to Christine’s story. She was a stewardess then. Asking her to settle down at such a tender age was impossible for her to imagine. They had a mutual understanding that she is happy with the way things are- namely, living together, sharing a life like they are in a marriage, just not tied down by a scroll.

Mr X thought he met THE ONE. Its no wonder. Christine’s the most gentle, kind, sweet looking, soft hearted babe I have ever known. She really fits the adjective- Demure. Her heart is as soft as silk and she aspires to lead a fulfiling life. She needs no luxury, although Mr X could jolly well provide for her WELL and buy her the whole collection of Dior bags. She is someone in the comfort zone but never stopped learning and caring for the poor and needy. She told Mr X she is happy with her life- Carefree and needs no paper to confirm their relationship.

Now that she is 30. When I met her again, she told me she has been going out with another guy. Not like they are dating but they are trying to know each other better. It was pretty surprising coz I always thought she was in THE PERFECT relationship where there was no commitment and it was filled with nothing but understanding.

She is still living with MR X. At 30, she had hoped he will settle down with her. She yearns for a family and a kid of her own. She would think that Mr X will be ready too since he should have matured a lot more by now.

They had an understanding again, though not in writing. Mr X said he has no plans to go into a marriage again and he would understand if she decides to leave him for someone else. With this understanding, and his blessing, she is trying to go out with other potential guys again.

When probed, she said Mr X is a very very nice guy. Its really a pity since its been so long. They are still living together and spending time together. I Wonder if it is painful although she portrayed a look like she truly understands where he is coming from. How painful is it when you are sitting next to someone you wish you can possess but also know you could have lost him forever?

You can meet the right person at the right place but a wrong time. I would think I am at the right place and time now but is it the same for my partner to be?

Having said that, Mr X probably met his first wife at the wrong time. Its with deep regrets that his 2 kids have to go thru a failed family.

That is also why I Told my bestie not to go into a relationship just after he graduates because it may not be the right timing if he does has the intention to settle down with her. If someone really loves you, he can wait. He will wait. Maybe this understanding only exists in my parents’ era? I am not sure of the values people hold these days.

Christine, perhaps things happened for a reason. Whatever it is, for such a great being you are, I pray that God has bigger plans for you. You will be blessed with a husband who loves and adores you. Even if you’re alone at the end of the day, you know Mr X will still be around, less the paper. Even if not, you had lived a life of great experiences and true love.

I did not watch Singapore Idol until my best friend Adel, refused to go out on a Wednesday night and we were forced to have a gathering at Audrey’s place so as to catch the wannabes in action on channel 5.

At 8pm, we were all sitting in front of the tv with a packet of Lays. I must say, that session in front of Singapore Idol was entertaining indeed. You have no idea how bitchy the 4 of us were. I remembered Joaquim was still standing in that episode.

Since then, I will catch the Singapore idol if I were home on a Wed night. So far, i only watched 1 more episode.

I love Hady Mirza. He’s good looking and sings really well. Jonathan did his last song really well. Has a great package and the X factor. If you ask me, he is not good looking. Just, X.

From a marketing point of view, my take is for Jonathan to win although I would prefer Hady. This is because the last idol was a Suria winner and I would not presume it will be another Suria star.

Sms till you burn a hole in the pocket. The winner has been decided. These publicities are just ways to churn out more revenue from 1) sms, 2) Airtime. With all the hype, the station only benefits with more commercials. It does not matter who the winner is, these guys are just puppets used to create controversies and with it, more money.

One thing for sure is, Jonathan will be signed by a Chinese record company to cut an album and probably turned actor in time to come with Mediacorp. He is like an Ekin Cheung with a Singaporean slang. Hady will become the next ‘tauhu’ or is it ‘Tauguah’ whom, i don’t really hear much of these days. Maybe its becoz I never tuned to Suria. Oops, I just remembered he is taufik?

I predicted Chen Wei Lian to be the winner of Project superstar becoz there are many other singers out there like Kelly. What makes her different? How often do you get a Ray charles? Singapore will be the FIRST asian country to produce a handicapped singer and this is publicity already. Always be the first to do anything. People remember you that way. With this analysis, I wasn’t surprised when he was the winner. Afterall, whether Kelly won or not, she will get to cut an album anyway. By the time they both got into the finals, they were winners already. Months of publicity, win or lose.

Thus, if my marketing foresight does not fail me again, I believe Jonathan will emerge victorious. He has too many Chinese mei meis backing him up. I see him making it big in Taiwan in time to come if he lands himself in good hands. To me, he is an acquired taste.

And you guessed it. I must be bored today to be writing this blog. ha! Bet you din expect it from me. ITs always nice to add a twist to my somewhat ‘EXPECTED’ entries. ITs time to ‘Wow’ a lil bit.